Absconding Paranoid

My fingers dance in the joy to the beat in my heart they tap fast on the board when my eyes are so closed and my feet tap on the floor [singing] my mind feels the zeal from head to heel the rhythm is refined with the passion redefined [come on] build up the heat make it so neat enjoying is an art yup, rewind that part and sing it like that [My fingers] roar like a beast (and) thump on the ground (yeah) move like a breeze (and) sing out aloud (yeah) just play with no plan the best way you can just wind out your pace and let there be grace [one more time] let the mirror go here and there when my head moves around as I turn around again feeling the tune... so profound!! [my mind]

I remember this dialogue from a Telugu movie whenever someone mentions beauty - ' Andham ante chudaali chudaali anipinchaali gaani chusesaam chusesaam anipinchakudadhu! '. Unfortunately this quote loses its beauty when translated to English. But I would try to carry the feel of it in the rest of this post :) A guy like me, who stays away from home, who has voracious appetite for food, who can cook well (well, my friends tell me so), still thinks of going home and eating the cuisines prepared by mom. The way mom cooks drags me back home again and again. A guy like me thinks of going on a drive on his bike at any time... no matter how many times he has gone on a drive. What makes you play with cute kids and make them smile? What makes you think of recalling memories? What makes you listen to a song in loop? What makes you come back to your Comics? What makes you visit places like Goa again and again? Its not just the love for food. Its not just the passion. Its not ...

I wanna become.... a song.. a singable song! That would play for long.. long enough to entice... the singer in you to notice the shrill of silence and make a difference (yeah) in the way you make noise :D the beauty of resilience redefined in the rev when you see the drivers mood dancing under the hood the sheer brilliance when it comes to hope to say blunty nope when someone says 'give up' yeah.... i'm the one under the hood and above the wheels i'm the joy you feel i'm the one to kneel in front of your zeal i'm the one... to drive you crazy i'm the one... who makes you lazy i'm the song of your life! who says 'live to drive' who makes you smile for every damn mile!! :) lets ride down... the lane of imagination and race beyond satisfaction to define the style of perfection to meet the glory at destination :D

Present scene: It was a sunny evening.. Even at 5 PM sun was still shining high in the sky. Pavan and Satish were relaxing in the balcony. They were looking at each other and laughing. They couldn't help but laugh at the incidents that took place in the last few minutes and well, the last few days too! They dint know that few more shocks were in store for them. How it all started : It all started when a group of friends (Pavan, Satya, Satish and Raghu) planned to give a gift to the newly married couple (Gautham and Pujitha) after a month. Well sometimes things get a little late ;) As planned, on 8th Apr 2011, Satya and Pavan bought the gift and brought it to Pavan's place with some difficulty on Satya's bike. They thought that it would be better to take it in the car as it would be more convenient. They called up Satish to come over the next day so that he could drive them (and the gift ofcourse) to the couple. The next day they all left in the car as...

Silly soliloquies in front of the mirror enjoying the cool breeze on my face Humming to the heart's quiver while riding my bike at a constant pace ---- Laughing at my own sense of humour remembering the good old days and the beauty in every single moment Though nothing was planned ahead it always sounds like a tale told before ---- Every time someone thinks of future I recall what I think of mine... hopefully a nice one is on its way :) ---- Silly soliloquies in front of the mirror enjoying the cool breeze on my face Humming to the heart's quiver while riding my bike at a constant pace ---- Satisfaction is never found without narcism and narcism is never found without true love or maybe its the other way around But it feels good to have both :) ---- Riding through the slender present quenching my thirst for simplicity gearing up for the reality I keep moving on.... ---- Silly soliloquies in front of the mirror enjoying the cool breeze on my face ...

Its one of those moments.. When theres something... that conceived somewhere... sometime... comes to life... and remains special.. for a lifetime! as more than a feeling that adds a touch... thats sweet when felt! and stands for eternity as a great song... which feels new and strange.. everytime its played but resounds like an old tune as long as its remembered Well... This somethings called vengeance :P Just kidding! :D Enjoy the life ahead :) PS: Dedicated to Gautham and Pujitha :) Wish you a happy married life!!

jab bhi mein tujhe milta hun kuch kisse ho jaate hain kuch mere.. kuch tere aur kuch mere dil mein mujhe ehsaas nahi hua tha ki.. teri aankhon me dekhthe dekthe teri aankhon me dekhthe dekhthe teri baatein bin sune nikalaati hai mere do kaan dokha dete hai jab bhi mein tujhe milta hun kuch kisse ho jaate hain kuch mere.. kuch tere aur kuch mere dil mein mujhe patha nahi tha... ki.. khat likhne aur padhne mein itna mazaa aata hai kuch baatein har lamha mein baar baar sunai deti hai neinon me basi hui teri tasweer agar saamne aaye itni kareeb tho sapnon ka mazaak karte hein behosh hue ye dil jab bhi mein tujhe miltha hun kuch kisse ho jaate hain kuch mere.. kuch tere aur kuch mere dil mein mujhe yaad nahi hai... kab tere naam ye dil ki deewar pe likha tha.. lekin itna to pata hai... kitna bhi khoon barsake use mita nahi saktha

Not every word is uttered Not every thought is considered Not every moment is remembered And the time is running out and it always runs out Sometimes, it slows down When you are waiting for something to happen and you keep watching Not every word is uttered Not every thought is considered Not every moment is remembered There would be some things which you do with full enthusiasm you would be involved so much that it seems like time fooled you The time is running out and it always runs out So... Ruminate the best times and Say out the best words Emanate the past glory and Pen down the best thoughts Relish the best moments and Bring out the best story Revisit good old days and Tune them up from the memory Make it stand as a new history Its time... To raise the voice and make some noise!!

After getting into a job and leaving home, I dont remember when was the last time I spent a whole week at home (excluding visits to Grand parents' places and other relatives' places). Thanks to the facilities at my work place, I am able to work from home happily! :) I wish to remember this week particularly because I donno when this sort of a week comes again in my life. I dont want to think when would be the next time, but this time I will make sure to enjoy to the fullest and spend a good amount of time with my parents. Glad that I am gonna spend the new year eve in a memorable way! :)

Ever felt worlds falling apart? Dreams dominating reality? Ever saw delusions? Cant tell if you are asleep or awake? The delusions and dreams questioning you together If you are real?? making it sound as if asking what is the real you? In the act of self protection... You cant tell whats truth or fiction! Makes sense only when ... All the pain visualizes in front of you The real things around you don't make a difference The entirety of life seems like a joke The heart beat mocks the very rhythm of life Making it clear to you that nothing is clear to you Losing not everything but just hope.. Or maybe the other way round! Sounds real only to the one on the verge of reality To everyone else, it sounds like insanity! The freezing chills of the winter make the limbs numb Only the sounds of thuds tell you that you are running The crashing images continue to demolish the mind Leaving no one.. to tell you what you are chasing and that you are... an absconding para...

No wonder I came back to blogging after so much time. I've been enjoying a lot these days. Going home almost every weekend. Visiting friends often. New job, new flat ( rented one of course ;-) ), new TV, new washing machine, new carom board... and the list doesn't stop here. Planning to join swimming from next month and planning to get a play station too. Well, life is going on too smooth these days :-) I ought to thank all my colleagues, friends and family who made this happen to me!! Those who expected a poem or sketch or something else, hold on!! a Telugu poem is on its way :-) And ya, I almost forgot! I wanted to share something and thats why I logged in. Day before yesterday, I attended a friend's engagement. With a few close friends, we had a real good time cracking jokes and all. And the guy who was getting engaged (Yeah Gautham, thats you :-D ) had one particular incident to share. His photographer asked him to give poses in all different angles.... He was a...

Cruising the land of no-one Living the life of no-one Reaching a blurred destiny I soared into the sky .... There was no-one... no-one but you who could hold me from getting drifted away into the fading plight .... Desire I still have to hang on tight but... Destined I was to never return from the flight .... I so very wish for the string to cut midway and get Carried away rather than make your hand bleed trying to hold me back .... Finally here I am all set out to be freed with the currents of monsoon dragging me out soon .... Being torn apart I pray to the passing thunder to let the pouring rain reach you through every fender and cleanse the pain... you have got for missing a kite's tender :(

Got back to sketching today :)

Gazing at the moon Life moves on... Another day again Sunrise starts too soon Its the love... that remains for eternity! Its the love... that made mom devote her time to play 'boo' with us n be stern while making us learn Gazing at the moon Life moves on... Another day again Sunrise starts too soon Its the love... that makes the heart move!! Its the love... that made dad save every penny n spend on us and spend for us Gazing at the moon Life moves on... Another day again Sunrise starts too soon Its the love... that makes granny sing the lullabies Its the love... that makes grampa tell the fantasy stories Gazing at the moon Life moves on... Another day again Sunrise starts too soon But from sunrise to sunset Its just the love... that stays all day long Like an ever green song... pleasant and pleasing... as long as its 'playing' ;)

Some see life as a goal to reach. Some create a path to follow while some choose from existing ones. All of them are eager to reach the destination and mark their lives with the schedule and plan. Once they reach there, life seems happy for them and they will be content. At that point of time, they again see life becoming normal and soon find themselves bored! The truth is, I am not one of those. I prefer to look back at my life when I reach a point when I really get bored! All those words written long back suddenly would seem to bring back those days and dust those memories. All the pictures, lying steady in the albums and harddisks would suddenly start moving in the mind. The path chosen or taken might be nice or unpleasant... but the happiness we get while travelling will always be relished even more when feeling it at the destination. Life can be enjoyed only when we choose to accept both happiness and sadness together. Whether lonely or together, it doesnt matter. The laug...

I dont know if this post makes sense here but this has been quite a rib-tickler since a few weeks :) One fine day at the coffee place, one guy was narrating this joke from Santosham movie: 'Brahmi approaches Nagarjuna and asks a question as to how an egg which falls from top floor doesnt break. Nag tries all sorts of answers but Brahmi disapproves all. He finally reveals the answer that the reason is 'Pure Luck' :D ' To this, we laughed alot. Just then another guy, who recently recovered from an accident, entered the coffee place and asked us why we were laughing so much. Another guy replied : 'There is this guy, who fell from his bike, skidded a good 10 m, and escaped unhurt. How?' 'Is he wearing gloves and knee pads?' 'No' 'Helmet?' 'No' 'He fell on the bike?' 'No' 'Then how?' 'Its Pure Luck :D' ------------ A few days later, some guys were solving puzzles. One guy p...

Its like a train journey... its good sometimes........... its bad sometimes............. but its best... with you :D When happy, it looks amazing.. each station just whizzes by. the countdown to the destination roars in the mind the thought of going nearer pumps up the joy but its best when I reach ... its best when I finally meet you :D (Its like a ..) When sad, it looks boring leaving you is like smothering (me) each station whines by... the destination seems to be welcoming coldly... into the depressing reality but its best to think of the next journey...to you....that I would again meet you :D (Its like a ..) When the journey ends.. it looks calm and peaceful.. but not for long...as the next journey begins. As long as my friends come with me As long as you wait for me I can embark on any journey With new hopes and high aims Gripping to the sweet memories, I look forward to see you (again) :D (Its like a ...) Its like a train journey... its good somet...

Instill faith in potential donors A common man in this society generally wills to help needy for he knows the value of things. Considering the people who will to donate, there are some things which need to be taken care of. Many people lost faith on NGOs or other non-profit organisations who collect donations and use them properly. There are some incidents which made them think so. For example, a Government medical college gets a lot of funds to facilitate the education of poor students and patients. These donations were not subject to proper utilization. The machinery worth crores would be purchased and then kept unused or not maintained properly. There were reported incidents of a dog taking away a new born baby. This clearly shows that funds, when not properly utilised, would discourage a potential donor. The solution to these types of scenarios/cases would be appointing personnel to take care of funds, track them and ensure they get utilised properly. An effective way woul...

Made this one yesterday. Needless to say, this is the poster of 'Pirates of Caribbean'

Here are the quotes that made me one of the two winners of a contest by tempostand: ------------------------------- Silence is the language of two hearts connected with the stream of Love Love is the feeling that adds the adjective 'Sweet' to the word 'Memories' Love is not a season that comes and goes, its the very reason why the heart beats!! Love is the dance of soul for the rhythm of heart beats Bliss tickles when you are around, loneliness teases when you are gone, Love Love is the resonance of ones heart beat with anothers. Its felt only when its heard :) Love is perfect only when shared - Anonymous ------------------------------- Except the last one, All were written by yours truly :)